I a not sure that I ever sleep through the night consistently even when I was younger. I seem to remember waking up and listening to the radio in the wee hours of the morning as far back as ten years old. They say, whoever ” they” are, that you sleep less and less the older you get. I am not sure that really matters or if its even true. I just know what I have learned from my own experiences.
I know that magnesium citrate, 300mg twice a day, helps us sleep. Learned that from Dr. Elizabeth Vaughn and it seems to work. But what ever was going on last year with my sleeping certainly was the exception. Just glad its all over now. I’m feeling like the me I am used to feeling like and that feels good. The down side is that I no longer have the strength I had before I got sick in March of 2009. Laying around feeling like crap, being in pain and not sleeping will do that to you I suppose. I used to enjoy a two mile walk in the morning and bike riding in the park. Not any more. But I will get there one day. I feel it coming.I’m just happy to be where I am now. I may possibly have an explanation for the past two years too.
Back in the winter I was revisiting adult Indigo information on the web and stumbled on a page that may explain why I had all these health and emotional events the past two years. The site is called SUNFELL. You can find it @ http://www.sunfell.com. The page I am posting here is “The Unveiling: Adult Transition from Indigo to Octarine”. Read it in it entirety below.
The Unveiling: Adult Transition from Indigo to Octarine/Crystal
It starts with a vague feeling of something not quite being ‘right’. Sounds are harsher on the ears, you find yourself avoiding your once-beloved candle shop because the scents are so over powering. The mall, once a wonderful Temple of Temptations, has become the ninth circle of hell, as have many other public venues. Noise and crowds now drive you away, rather than excite and attract you. Your ‘been-there, done-that’ passport is completely filled, and nothing really thrills you any more. It’s mindless kiddie stuff now.
Certain friendships begin to drift, to dissolve, as your interests change and shift. Your home becomes your refuge and sanctuary, and your solitude becomes sacred. You might even end a relationship to achieve this solitude, but you never feel lonely. The TV and radio are off more than they are on, and popular music seems to be vapid and empty to your now extremely sensitive ears. Suddenly, you feel no anxiety in telling offensive and obnoxious people where to get off, and meaning it. Your moods become the stuff of legend. Sounds almost like menopause, but it isn’t. You have bursts of creativity, and bursts of total laziness and disinterest.
Food becomes a challenge: what you once loved, you now hate, and processed food suddenly seems toxic to you- or at least your body believes so judging by its reactions. You might start getting odd rashes, having allergic reactions to formerly benign things, having nap attacks, and feeling swimmy in the head. You begin to believe that you are a walking collection of mysterious aches, pains, cramps, spasms and numbness. Sleep is erratic, with vivid dreams- especially if you’ve had an alcoholic beverage before bedtime. Your sex drive may flip-flop. Visits to your doctor reveal nothing.
Religion no longer satisfies- even if you are devout, you might cease getting anything out of the services or rituals you’ve practiced for years. If you had spiritual contacts, the connection may seem altered, or the mental ‘handshake’ you were accustomed to having confirming the connection may vanish. A little probing will reveal that you now have an ‘always-on’ broadband quality connection with Spirit, and spiritual things that you struggled to master before- including certain meditative exercises- become effortless. Best of all, the quality of your spiritual connection becomes almost pristine, without the usual ‘noise’ you had to struggle through to communicate.
You might find yourself changing light bulbs more often, or having to contend with the sudden failure of a favorite electronic gadget. Computers might suddenly either hate or love you, and very sensitive electronic instruments may go haywire in your presence. Small kids and animals may react violently to your presence, and you may have to carefully remake your acquaintance with pets.
What is happening? Are you turning into an eccentric curmudgeon? Or- god forbid- a ‘Carrie’? No, you are transiting from your Indigo stage to your Octarine/Crystal stage. You’ve undergone the trials and tribulations of life, had your hard knocks and educational experiences, built your inner self-confidence and learned about your capabilities. Now it is time to get down to your real mission in life.
The life of the Indigo can seem to be unduly difficult at times, given the inborn eccentricities and sensitivities of this particular type of person. Today’s children have it much worse than the children of 30-50 years ago, as they are more closely watched, and much more likely to be ‘diagnosed’ with various ailments- both real, and culturally acceptable. Eccentricity, independence and ‘spiritedness’ are not a welcome trait in today’s child, and the toxic environment that today’s kids are born into makes overcoming the congenital difficulties imprinted into them by the environment even more difficult. If an Indigo child survives his or her childhood un-drugged and un-diagnosed with various things like ADHD, autism, or worse, they are extremely fortunate. Unfortunately, the vast majority of the most recent crop of Indigo children have become the victims of this particular disaster, which has meant that the even more sensitive beings meant to come behind them would have an even lower survival rate. So, the emphasis and transition to Octarine/Crystal has been shifted from the unborn to the currently living.
Great changes are happening to humanity, and spiritually sensitive people are still required to help engender these changes and catalyze the rest of humanity and guide them through these times. It is clear that being born Crystal will not be the solution, and in fact, creates even more problems- like the sudden epidemic of autism in some children. So, things have taken a different tack. Indigo born adults are being ‘upgraded’ to Crystal (in reality, Octarine) to step into the gap and continue the work. Some of them will have Crystal children to continue the work, as well. But because of the extreme toxicity of both the psychic and the natural environment, the survival rate of Crystal children is much lower than it should be, thus triggering this particular change in plans. Many Crystals are conceived, but don’t even make it to birth. And some are born to parents who are incapable of handling them, and end up dying in childhood ‘accidents’. And those who manage to get fairly decent parents still end up in psychically toxic environments, and taken at very tender ages to over-stimulating venues which make them literally shut down- turning violently away from the world because they cannot handle the overload.
Because of this high failure rate, the creation and transition of adult Indigos into functional Crystals is the current spiritual solution to the problem.
Transiting from Indigo to Octarine/Crystal is like being stripped to the bone and re-dressed in a slightly different, but still familiar body. Even for adults who have built defenses against the harsher elements of the environment, this change is very difficult. Even outgoing Indigos suddenly become near-hermits, and the shy ones practically vanish. As one who has undergone this rather harsh change, the careful restructuring of one’s life to accommodate the Gifts that are part of the Octarine/Crystal arsenal is vital. Clutter is suddenly toxic. People are oppressive. I hate the telephone, but love the Internet. I don’t go near stores between Thanksgiving and New Years. I no longer attend noisy crowded events or go to loud places. I’ve become a catalog shopper and a mail-order maven. Silence rules my private time. But there are positive aspects, too: suddenly, I am a bottomless well of words, ideas, suggestions, and charisma. I’ve never seen myself as a leader, but suddenly, I am. Not the traditional sort, but more like a quietly competent backseat sort, whose followers tell themselves, ‘we did this’, but guided with a Word here or there from the Silent Leader.
And what words! The native Indigo wit has been sharpened to an incredible fineness- capable of surgically rebuilding bad ideas into good ones, or dryly collapsing a room into gales of laughter. Written or spoken, the Words of the newly minted Octarine Crystal vibrate with inner meaning, Will, and genuine Magick in the best sense of the word. With the Octarine ray at their disposal, Crystals now have a means to use their extreme sensitivities for great things- healing, dowsing, creating or closing energy wells, deflecting bad energies, sniffing out charlatans and destructive people, lie and truth detection…the list goes on and on. With adult experience coupled with fully developed Indigo gifts, the newly minted Octarine/Crystal becomes a formidable being, belying their sensitivities. They are more than capable of a devastating defense if they are attacked, and getting on the bad side of such a person is not advised. Most likely, they will have sniffed you out well before any problems arise, and will either have healed you of your twisted energies, or blocked you in such a way that you are harmless to them. If you have such a person as a friend, treasure them. If you’ve managed to make such a person into an enemy, shame on you.
Octarine/Crystal adults have access to the many spirals of ‘time’ that gives them insight that makes them clairvoyant in capability. Being able to see farther up the loops of the Spiral Path than ordinary people makes them capable of avoiding the current sequence of events that creates the difficulty further up the road. This big picture capability makes them a formidable ally in the ongoing retuning of humanity.
It can also be a terrifying gift, as the future spirals first manifest themselves as dreams- both sleeping and waking. Crystal dreams would make the horror and disaster moviemakers extremely envious- because they show the extreme manifestations of small errors. Octarine/Crystals work to deflect or derail these sequences- a word here, a small change there, a moment of reflection and insight somewhere else, subtly placed in the way of the growing juggernaut, keeping yet another disaster away. It is chaos theory at work.
This gift of spiritual and temporal farsightedness can be the cause of some frustration to those who are family and friends with a newly minted Octarine. They may withdraw from extended contact, or suddenly close themselves off where they were once more forthcoming. Their demands for privacy may eclipse or even end some relationships. This sudden insistence on more casual contact and solitude is not shallowness, although it may seem like that at times. Instead, it is the Octarine’s defense from the intrusion of their particular Gifts into a relationship. Part of the gift of being able to see further into cause-and-effect time is the discernment of events of the lives of folks they have to live and work with. This includes their illnesses, accidents, and even death. If an adult Octarine gives you any health advice unsolicited, take it. They will rarely do this, and don’t try to push them into doing so.
The suddenly amplified sensitivities of the adult Octarine/Crystal may mean an end for much of the social and outgoing activities of their past. Concerts, movies, eating out may all fall by the wayside. They will become much more sensitive to food and its preparation, and may radically change their eating habits. For me, this change manifested itself in a desire to prepare my own food instead of eating takeaway, in restaurants, or packaged meals. There is a newfound pleasure in cooking, and in the planning, preparation and eating of meals in the home. Some food habits will radically change- including vegetarians returning to occasionally eating meat. The best thing to do is to listen to the needs of the body, as it knows what it needs. If it wants chocolate, give it chocolate. Same with broccoli or roast beef.
Health may become precarious during this changeover, and sometimes for a while after it. Your immune system will be stronger than ever, but you may suddenly become sensitive and even allergic to things that never bothered you before. And other former allergies will vanish without a trace. Balance is called for here. Use the senses you’ve been given to troubleshoot the problem, and eliminate the irritant from your home. Avoid the use of commercial cleaning products- you can get great results from simple cleaning items like vinegar, baking soda, and simple castile soap. Polish silver with ashes. Remove sources of persistent odors, or acquire an ionizing air freshener to help to destroy the odors.
Consider homeopathic and naturopathic solutions to health problems. Quit smoking (if you do smoke) and monitor your alcohol consumption. If you had a drug habit in your youth, and the bumps and scrapes of this transition tempt you to return to using them, don’t. It will kill you in a very awful manner. Even ‘recreational’ drug use should be ended, because your body and mind has changed radically, and its processing capability boosted to incredible levels. Moderate exercise- just walking- will be very helpful in maintaining your well being. Make sure that you have regular checkups by your doctor.
If you are a childless female and are considering having children after your transition to Octarine, you might want to reconsider doing so. Age is one factor, since the transition takes place in the late thirties to early forties most of the time. In spite of what the magazines say, your optimum years for childbearing are behind you, and you have a greatly increased risk of having a defective child. Also, your sensitivities will also be radically amplified, and pregnancy may be exquisitely painful- both physically and psychically. There is also the matter of your senses being amplified, and the trials and tribulations of childrearing will be much harder on you. Consider being an aunt (or uncle) instead- so you can reap the benefits of interacting with children (including young Indigos, who will worship the air you breathe) without entailing the frustrations and expense. This does not mean that you shouldn’t have them at all if your tradition demands them. But it will be a much more harrowing experience for you than for others, and you’ll probably stop at one. And it will be an Indigo- so be warned.
The unveiling of your true Octarine/Crystal core can be harrowing at times, but it is ultimately rewarding, in ways that are unimaginable to the uninitiated. It’s like you’ve suddenly grown a whole meter, or have been given color vision in a monochrome world, or can hear musical chords and melodies after being deaf. Your life will radically change, but once that change has settled in, you will wonder how you managed to get along before it happened. You will quietly use your newly unveiled Gifts to help the rest of humanity find its way to wakefulness, seeking no reward or recognition- but content to be part of the great wave of Awakening Light that is sweeping the world.
Ó 2002 by Sunfell